looking through old pictures on my facebook and became depressed. 

a lot were cute ones of me and my ex, but thats not what depressed me.

DAMN I WAS FUCKING SMALL. i miss it. 

clearly miserable jessica was a very tiny, skinny, sexy jessica. 

fuck it . someone needs to come into my life and make me very unhappy so i drop 10 pounds. diet and exercise is taking too long. 

i have lost 2 pounds though. 

i dont know if it will stay off. 

i’m working at it. 

maybe that bro i met can wheel me in with his charm and i’ll fall madly in love and then he will depress me further into the relatioinship so i can be skinny. 

of course this is all a joke. i don’t think i could ever let another person mistreat me ever again after everything i’ve been through the past couple of months. 

speaking about said bro above, he said something rude about my intelligence as a joke.. but, needless to say, he hasn’t ushered anything like that to me again and has become quite sweet towards me. 

now thats the jessica i used to know and be. YOU GO GIRL.